AS YOU CAN SEE HERE I'M THE 3RD ON THE TOP 5 USERS ONLINE WHICH MEANS I'M ABLE TO PUT MORE TIME IN TO THIS AUTISTIC WONDERFUL COMMUNITY THAN ANYONE ELSE
I've come to realize throughout my time in the gaming community as a whole, that I enjoy it to a point where I blindside myself, not only in an emotional state, but in a educational and overall standpoint as well. Ever since I started gaming, not only on PC, I have neglected duties of mine that will bring consequences that I don't want and that will inevitably make me more unhappy than I already am. I have a strong addiction to this community and games associated with it and the online community and because of this I procrastinate all of my educational and life duties because of it. I always tell myself, that I can do it alone, or I can do whatever I need to do later, but I end up putting it off, skipping school in order to catch up and just end up gaming the whole day rather than do what I said I was going to do. I almost failed my Junior year last year because I missed ~25 days of school and I would've lost all of my credits if it wasn't for a lie that I created in order to skip on by. I have personally turned my life upside-down with no contribution from anyone else. My GPA has fallen, and I will not be getting into the colleges that I had planned on multiple years ago. This is not a cry for attention as I am not that kind of person, I am doing this for the betterment of myself, and my future. This addiction has snowballed into a broken relationship with my Mother and my Uncle (Who I live with) and a great loss of trust. I believe I could call this the butterfly effect (Correct me if I am wrong).
I'm not here to preach my whole life's story and all of my problems unto the people of this community, but only to enlighten some.
Due to my revelations within the past years and even days, I will be resigning from my SO position and ask to be banned globally. From the forums, the servers and everything associated with sG. This is my first step into the recovery of my personal well-being and I believe this is the best step as of now.
I may lurk from time to time, but for the next year or longer, I will not be in sight.
I shall make contact once I have felt I have fixed my issues, but until then farewell.
I wish you all good luck in whatever endeavors sG has and I love all of you whether you guys think I'm an annoying faggot who shouldn't be here or not. For those I've been a douche to, I'm sorry and I've been lashing out on people because of my personal problems and I shouldn't have been doing that.
So again, I give one last farewell to all who have became friends and acquaintances with me.
Peace out, Special B
EDIT: I might be on steam from time to time, but that will only to stay in touch with some. FB for those who actually want to keep in touch regularly https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000200817570
