Apologies...

[Mitch 2111]

i'm pretty sure when you're blinded by love you don't realize that you're treating them like shit and you just try to validate and bring up reasons for why you're doing something, and it seems valid when you're not shown the other person's view

zeus noticed danielle's side, and then he realized how fucked up it really was to do what he did. he lost something he loved, i don't blame the guy. sure, you think he's pathetic because of the e-gf and the fact that he posted this publicly, but IMO he wasn't thinking it fully through, but he can't go back on it now

obviously you guys would never do this, right? you don't know that, so quit tryin to troll the guy

/whiteknight

fuck you for making me take the bait, btw

As someone who has developed very strong mutual feelings with a girl I met over the internet (yes through this gaming community), felt like we were incomparably close, thought there was a long future for us, lost her, wanted nothing more than to get her back, contacted her multiple times telling her how much I missed her to no success,

Fuck dude, I know we all joke about it, but Tucker's only like 13 years old.

He is not talking about Tucker.

Shit... really???

Not sure if serious...but anyways

Samm

I used 3 question marks. How more obvious can I be???

not as obvious as your dreamy blue eyes

[Necrophenia 435]

Is this going into the syndicate gamers magazine?

[dormantlemon 219]

solution:

[OBrian 120]

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Just dropping by to get this off my chest... I would like to apologize to everyone here, at least those remaining few who remember me, for taking everything so seriously over the years I had stuck around. All the drama and trolling had gotten to me to a point it never should have, and I let it eat at me even during times in which I was away from the forums. I was always so angry with what everyone had to say, or who was getting on who's case and this, that, and the other, much of it being started or perpetuated by myself.

Even as much as I felt I hated everyone and everything about this place, I still find myself lurking the forums from time to time just to see what is going on- never posting, obviously, but I've come to realize at this point that I don't truly hate any of you. Junzou, Nitestalker, Ponch, Foh, Project, etc, etc... You're all just here to have fun and chill, as is everyone else who comes around this joint, and often times I would take things too far, or get things out of context, raging over small potatoes and ruining other people's time just because I was holding a grudge. Even though there were some more serious things to come of these antics, they don't deserve the resentment I've held towards all of you for so long... I don't want to hate anyone anymore.

I'm sorry to all of you for all the pot stirring, drama, and trolling I've participated in.

To Dani, I practically forced you to avoid this place because of my own feelings, not taking into consideration how you felt. In my mind, I felt you were being weak by not sticking to what you said and not ever coming back on the few occasions you rage quit, and since Michael's stunts early last year, I felt you should avoid hanging around and trying to be a part of a community where any one member could decide they don't like you or what you're doing, and try to hurt you in the same way. It's not the first time you've had "PIP" issues with this community, but it was not my decision to make. It is your life, your choice to visit whatever video game community you want, and if and when anything bad happens, hopefully you will learn from it. All that being said, I would like to point out that you still promised me you would stay away from the forums. That was your decision to make as well, not mine. I can't force you to make promises, and the three times you broke that promise, the reason was you thought I would forget or not care anymore. To be perfectly honest, you were right, even the first time, I had begun to not really care much anymore, and I really did want to just drop it but I held it against you anyway since I was hurt you broke your promises. I'm not saying for sure one way or the other, but had you just talked to me about it and expressed how you felt, I probably would have been OK with it at that point... Because of the broken promises, I pushed further and further, telling you not to post on the forums, not to talk to certain people, particularly Nitestalker, not to play on the servers anymore, even going so far as to have you remove everyone involved with SG from your friends lists.

When it all boils down to it, I was a controlling little fuck up and I treated you like shit, and I want everyone here to know it as well. I always felt like I had to prove you wrong and that I was in the right no matter what the situation, and would bring our arguments to levels absolutely unnecessary and downright abusive. I was being the same old person I hoped I wouldn't be for you, that I had been all of my life to my own family and friends. In the year and nine months we had been together I demonstrated pretty accurately how hurtful I can be, not just on you, but through the bouts I had with my brother, the things I said to my uncle, and so on. The things I said to you on the first of this month were horrid, and I didn't mean a single word of it. I am still completely disgusted with myself... When you told me the night before that I scare you, I questioned it. That next day I understood why.

My mind is constantly racing every day while I'm at work, at home, or doing whatever, thinking of all the different things I want to say to you, like how much I love you, miss you, and can't stand not talking to you... Thoughts of how angry I am for the things you told me and what you've promised me, like how you dreamt of the day you would be Mrs. Danielle McCauley, or how you told me you would always love me for me no matter what. Those thoughts are immediately followed with the understanding that it's not OK for me to feel that way. It is not your fault I was such an asshole (understatement). You said those things because you were in love with who I want to be, and who I'm currently striving to be, harder than ever before, but strayed away from over the course of our relationship. I'm not proud of what I was. The only time in my entire life I've ever been proud of myself was when you were proud to call me your boyfriend.

This is a jumbled mess... I had it all composed in my head earlier, and now that I'm typing it out and getting anxious I can't think straight... I'm just trying to say I'm sorry, again, for the 8 millionth time, you probably don't want to hear it, will be upset to see it, etc, etc...

BeauutifulChaos: Because I just dont feel like I used to. I want to get butterflies again in my stomach when you talk to me, I want to hear you tell me how much you love me again, and how much you need me. I dont like it when you joke around and call me names, like slut or whore or whatever. I just want to feel like I did before. When we were really in love. When it didnt seem like I was just your online girl friend. But when I was something more than that.

Danielle, I love you and I need you. You were never just my online girlfriend, you're the love of my life, and I would do anything to get you back.

Best movie ever.

[BlackStone 66]

Join the Army. They are pretty good at making assholes into decent people. If said person wants to change. Worked for me honestly.

Always told myself I would if she left me. I've got some personal things I need to take care of here at home before I enlist, though.

Fuck that personal shit, if you can't fix it within 2 weeks, its because YOU are the issue. Fuck trying to fix it, fix your damn self first then come back and fix it once you've fixed yourself. If you have a lot of problems and the common denominator is you, you can't fix the problems because you don't have the tools to fix them because you are so damn fucked up that you simply don't know what to do in order to fix it.

[Guest Ziggity Zots]

Fuck that personal shit, if you can't fix it within 2 weeks, its because YOU are the issue. Fuck trying to fix it, fix your damn self first then come back and fix it once you've fixed yourself. If you have a lot of problems and the common denominator is you, you can't fix the problems because you don't have the tools to fix them because you are so damn fucked up that you simply don't know what to do in order to fix it.

I have obligations and goals I need to complete first. The same things that were preventing me from moving to NY for Dani as soon as she wanted me to.

[BlackStone 66]

Honestly, with what little I know about you and your situation, I would honestly suggest you re-evaluate and decide if your "obligations and goals" really need accomplishing now. Any you can rid yourself of that aren't core to your progression can be ignored. Keep the meat, trim the fat and enjoy the potatos.

[Sketchmaticx 3170]

i am toasted

fuck

[Guest Ziggity Zots]

Honestly, with what little I know about you and your situation, I would honestly suggest you re-evaluate and decide if your "obligations and goals" really need accomplishing now. Any you can rid yourself of that aren't core to your progression can be ignored. Keep the meat, trim the fat and enjoy the potatos.

Will keep that in mind, but there's not really anything I feel like I can let go at this point. They're things I need to do for myself and family before I can move on with my life.

[Goldentongue 3616]

Join the Army. They are pretty good at making assholes into decent people. If said person wants to change. Worked for me honestly.

Always told myself I would if she left me. I've got some personal things I need to take care of here at home before I enlist, though.

Fuck that personal shit, if you can't fix it within 2 weeks, its because YOU are the issue. Fuck trying to fix it, fix your damn self first then come back and fix it once you've fixed yourself. If you have a lot of problems and the common denominator is you, you can't fix the problems because you don't have the tools to fix them because you are so damn fucked up that you simply don't know what to do in order to fix it.

[UnknownLegend 5480]

You... you made a gif... of yourself...

[Goldentongue 3616]

You... you made a gif... of yourself...

[BlackStone 66]

Honestly a bit annoyed with his woe is me, I fucked shit up again for the millionth time attitude. Probably should have been a bit nicer, but fuck it, he needs to get his shit in order and he can't.

[Guest Ziggity Zots]

Honestly a bit annoyed with his woe is me, I fucked shit up again for the millionth time attitude. Probably should have been a bit nicer, but fuck it, he needs to get his shit in order and he can't.

I was apologizing to everyone here for the way I had been. It's not a matter of me not being able to get my shit in order. I can, and I am. You're misinterpreting this situation. I don't want or need your council, so move along.

[UnknownLegend 5480]

I don't want or need your council, so move along.

There's the Zeusy we know and love.

[Goldentongue 3616]

Honestly a bit annoyed with his woe is me, I fucked shit up again for the millionth time attitude. Probably should have been a bit nicer, but fuck it, he needs to get his shit in order and he can't.

[BlackStone 66]

I don't want or need your council, so move along.

There's the Zeusy we know and love.

Exactly. Was wondering how much provocation it would take to bring out....

[Dojima 7619]

Honestly a bit annoyed with his woe is me, I fucked shit up again for the millionth time attitude. Probably should have been a bit nicer, but fuck it, he needs to get his shit in order and he can't.

lmao

[Mitch 2111]

Honestly a bit annoyed with his woe is me, I fucked shit up again for the millionth time attitude. Probably should have been a bit nicer, but fuck it, he needs to get his shit in order and he can't.

lmao

dojima youre the luv of mah leif, pls cum b,ack

[Guest Ziggity Zots]

It's like GT is staring into my soul. Or my anus, whichever one is deeper.

[Christmas 643]

This thread is delivering.

[UnknownLegend 5480]

Man, you guys are seriously drama starved... This shit is nothing compared to what would pop up 2-3 years ago.

Also, is anyone else entertained by the fact that Zeus and Dani (mostly because of Zeus) avoided this place because of the negative people and drama, then Zeusy comes back and brings some good ol' drama with him?

Poor Dani just can't get away from crazy boys.

[Dojima 7619]

Also, is anyone else entertained by the fact that Zeus and Dani (mostly because of Zeus) avoided this place because of the negative people and drama, then Zeusy comes back and brings some good ol' drama with him?

Yes.

[Guest Ziggity Zots]

Man, you guys are seriously drama starved... This shit is nothing compared to what would pop up 2-3 years ago.

Also, is anyone else entertained by the fact that Zeus and Dani (mostly because of Zeus) avoided this place because of the negative people and drama, then Zeusy comes back and brings some good ol' drama with him?

Poor Dani just can't get away from crazy boys.

Ruh roh, Shaggy.

[Marine 2580]

This thread summed up in a gif.