This was super touching to read. I can't even imagine the emotions that you have been going through after this accident to lose something that you once had. I haven't known you for that long but I can tell that you are a really genuine and kind person, and the fact that you were able to trust the community in sharing your story shows everything. Even if you don't see me as a friend, I definitely see you as one, and if you want someone to lean on for support just know that I, as well as a lot of people here, are here for you <3