Brother committed suicide today.....

[Clarkus 63]

You'll get through this buddy, you have the forums support, and mine if you need it. This is a big bump in your life I understand I've had some recent passes in my family as well so I can almost relate. Stay strong brobro

 

Edited April 28, 2014 by clarkus

[Bob Ross Zombie 1512]

I wish I could offer you more then just my thoughts and prayers man. You know you have a loving family of friends here, anytime you need me, I'll be around dude

[Seanyo 35]

I'm sorry for your loss Demon. Trust me and go and talk to some one. It's worth it. It'll help a lot.

[Popsicle_Ninja 34]

Randy pointed out that you shouldn't look to smoking or other bad habits to cope with this and when I was a sophomore in high school this kid who I had been annoyed with because he had been "mean" to me the past couple years ever since we were on the same Y football team in elementary school, and because he was better than me at a couple of things. I thought that I could care less what happened to him, well he shot himself and I just shut myself into a corner in my head and tried not to deal with anything I shortly picked up smoking weed, cigs, and drinking and quickly began doing all of those quite heavily it wasn't until about a year ago that I was able to even consider stopping smoking let alone accomplish it and I have only recently gotten my drinking under control so that I at least think I wont die of liver failure at 25. On top of it having taken me five years to stop the shit I was in when I finally stopped doing that crap I realized how worthless I had been for the last couple years and almost dove headfirst into the grave I had been digging for myself because of that nauseating fact. Even though I thought it was a good escape, that crap only lasts for a while I couldn't be a bump on a couch forever. Took me awhile to figure that out, if you need anything demon let me know.

[yeet 1050]

Thanks you all so much, you have no idea how much you've helped me cope with this guys. His funeral is friday and I'm going to be a pallbearer, I'm carrying his body to his own grave. A little brother carrying his stronger and older brother to his grave shouldn't be something that should ever happen.....again thank you all so much, it puts tears to my eyes thinking about how much support I get from you guys. Don't take your loved ones for granted, remember this guys. I don't care if you fight with your family member or hate each other because by the time you realize how much you love them, they're already gone like in my situation. I don't want any of you ever to go through what I am right now because honestly this is the hardest thing I've ever done. I constantly get nightmares about "what if I called him? I could have saved him? Why didn't I call him?" I've had nightmares where I see his body hanging and I can't wake up from them and he just stares as me as I sit in the corner begging him to stop. My life is turned upside down in this moment but I know I can rise above this. It only can get better from here right? I'm not sure if I'm in denial about it but I have hope. The image is burned into my mind but like most wounds, it will eventually heal. 

 

Please keep your loved ones close

Edited April 30, 2014 by Demon

[Sean 3760]

Be a stronger brother for him, bud.

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[ROFL 699]

<3

[BeauutifulChaos 902]

<3 It's good to see you are trying to stay positive. Just keep his memory alive and be happy for him, because he's always going to be with you.

[Bob Ross Zombie 1512]

Honestly, the hardest thing to do in this moment is to not dwell on it. Keep yourself active and away from being alone and thinking of it. Some time away with friends and family will help the most. be strong man.

[yeet 1050]

Well I'm in Minnesota for his funeral right now and I just realized that today is his birthday, fuuuuccckkk